Ok this is what is really up with me....my teenager is going off to college very soon...too soon for me. My baby just turned 10....no more baby:( And Saturday I got a phone call from my brother (in the middle of my Christmas party). He told me that my mom had pnemonia and my dad seemed really upset about it. When my parents called to wish Zach a happy birthday yesterday we were at church so I didn't have time to talk to them about it. So I called my dad back to day and asked what was up.
The very important detail that was left out Saturday came to light today. Apparently, when they did the xrays for the pneumonia they told my mom that she needed to get to the oncologist as soon as possible. Now to be honest that they said this is not a shock....but it is painful. My mother is a breast cancer survivor so for cancer to be mentioned is not a road that we have been down before. What makes it painful is that in spite of the fact that my mother beat cancer she continued to smoke like a chimney.
I really don't even have any words to say right now. I normally would ask for prayer from those who surround me and have been placed by God in my life to be part of my prayer circle, but I can't even bring myself to say it to them. I have talked to several of them today, so its not like I haven't had a chance...I just can't say it...so I am writing it.
So I am emotional case right now. Add to it something that is being changed and rearranged in me by God and I basically cry at the drop of a hat.